Hey all, I wanted to let you know that my son's Mom and the love of my life passed away after a long battle with cancer today. It is his Birthday. Basically I'm writing this because it affected me and my life on these boards greatly. I'm not going to lie we are destroyed. We can't stop weeping and thinking about her. I just wanted to say thank you to a few people. @uselesstoys, you sent me a gift when it was about as bad as it could be. I'll never forget that. Thank you. @evom as well, you know what you did and it was near the end when I was really struggling. Your gestures of kindness were just really sorely needed. And last but not least @Rich. I burned so many bridges in the last year, all of the people I care about the most. I wanted to say thank you for being a friend to me before all of this. You were such a good person in my life and I shit on you. I just want you to understand that I was going through trauma. I just was on fire against anyone who I cared about. It's like "get away from me I'm wounded". I know it makes zero sense, but it's because I love you bro. Last night I brought my son to the hospital to say goodbye to his Mom. She lay there unresponsive while he told her he would love her forever. I thought that was the hardest day of my life. Nope. Today she passed away on his birthday. It was like a bullet shot through his heart when I told him. He has not let go of me since the call. We are both just bawling. I know some people were critical of me selling my toys on ebay. I want you to know @hellointerloper that we raised just enough for her insurance, but she died before we could renew it, so the money is going towards funeral expenses. I sold my car, my possessions, and my toys. So now I have an empty house and heart. I feel 50 years older today. My whole life perspective is just completely shifted. Anyways, you won't have to hear about it anymore it's over. She is dead. Part of me is too my friends. Peace be with you and yours. Q
My deepest condolences to you and your son. I'm so very sorry. I wish you both peace. I can't imagine what you guys are going through, but I am glad to know that you have each other in this awful time. Take care, man.
I can't begin to imagine what you're going through. I know she at peace and pain free now but that won't be the case for you and your son for some time. Hopefully you can be strong for each other and that each day will be slightly better than the day before. My deepest condolences to you and your family.
Sorry for everything you've been through! hope you can find some peace that there's people out there that support you and want you to find happiness. Again so sorry for your loss, you are in my prayers and thoughts!
I am deeply sorry for your loss Ryan. Words can't even begin to express feelings in these types of situations, nor can much comfort or understanding really be given. It is an awful thing to go through to lose someone you love; and in these particular circumstances the pain, sadness, and anger is even worse. I am sure your reactions are completely taken in the context, and are fully justified. You can't be expected to be at your best or even rational in moments like these. I know this is just an internet forum, but hopefully the fact that you are opening up here and expressing yourself is a sign of a little of the small sense of 'family' we feel to these toy strangers. And if this is the case, then please know you, your son, and your family are in our thoughts, and you have friends here that you can talk to, or just come and yell at in frustration, and no one will think the worse of you. I can't imagine how tough it is, and will be, for you. Live with the joy of her memory and please try and take some small comfort or at least distraction in anyway that you can. My most sincere condolences to you and your son. <giant hug>
Damn Ry I'm so sorry to hear this. Stay strong for you and your son, you and your family are in my thoughts <3
My condolences to you, your son and both families for the loss. Strength, positivity and vibes to you all just the same. I feel like, more than anything, as human beings, the number one thing we can all relate to is loss, on various scales. So in that regard, I hope you know, you're never alone. I'm really glad you've had multiple avenues of support between here and home. Hopefully, in time you'll be able to repair, rebuild and begin the healing.
I'm really sorry man. That sounds truly horrible for your son to have gone through, but you as well. Death is never an easy thing to deal with. And don't worry, we didn't know why you sold your toys at first. Assumptions were made, then you told us. No need to explain yourself further. Good luck moving forward. It will be difficult, but stay strong for your son. He will need a solid foundation to hold onto, and even if you don't feel strong, you have to try for him.
Sorry that you and your son have a piece missing forever from life. Truly my heart aches thinking about your mindset. Hope you can find some way to ease it a bit.
Hang in there man. Very sorry for your loss. Losing immediate family is the worst thing in the world. Keeping you all in my thoughts.
My sincere condolences to you Ryan, your son and family. I know it is a very hard time right now (my father passed last February of cancer) and I wish you and your family the best. Stay strong for you son. They say that time will heal your wounds, but their will always be a part of that wound that will never fully close. Cherish those warm memories with her and know that she left part of herself with your son. Wishing you the best.
Ryan, I know how hard this is right now. I am very sorry for you and your son's loss. It's terrible he had to lose his mother on his birthday, let alone at all. Stay strong for him, I know that is easier said than done. I feel comfortable speaking for the community, in the sense that if there is anything any of us can do, please don't hesitate to reach out. This community is here for you. Please be strong and take things one day at a time.
So sorry to hear of your loss. I am not going to assume that I know how you should grieve, but please know that everyone here is pulling for you to get through this. Keep your son close and let him help you heal, just as you will help him.
My sincerest condolences. The light that was her life will remain in your hearts. May it burn through the pain and darkness of your loss.
i'm sorry for you loss ryan, and i hope there will be a time in the near future that you and your family can celebrate the life of someone you've lost.
Ryan I'm very very sorry for your loss. I remember when you announced her diagnosis, I believe on CAD. My family is also stricken by this terrible disease and I can only imagine how hard this has been. My prayers go out to your entire family, all my best. <3
Ryan, I'm so sorry for your loss. I'll be keeping you and your son in my thoughts today. I hope that as the days go on, your loss will be a little easier to bear. Good luck to you..
Very sorry to hear of your loss, Ryan. What an extremely hard thing to go through. My condolences, and I wish the best for you as you move through the changes.
